Life just threw me a pretty major curve ball. One I hadn’t really accounted for. My husband decided he can’t do this anymore, and ended our marriage. Just like that. He decided this is what he wanted, there was no discussion. Talk about a twist in my path! I’m still struggling with all of the emotions that come with this…sadness, confusion, anger…and it’s tough. I’m not going to pretend, either for my sake or for yours, that it’s not. I didn’t get married, just two years ago, thinking that we would come to an end. Certainly not like this, and certainly not after only two years. But here we are.
It happened on a Saturday earlier this month. I felt confused and lost and sad on Saturday night. Sunday was a bit of a blur, but I had a lot of work to do, so I focused on that.
But as it always does, Monday morning came, and the real world was staring me in the face. As I was driving to my morning yoga class, I looked to my left, as I always do at this time of year, to marvel at the colors of the sky as the sun makes its way over the horizon. And suddenly, this surreal Monday, I had this thought: the sun still rises.
Yes, I’m going through some stuff, and it’s hard. And yes, my personal world has been tipped on its end. And whatever plan I thought I had has changed. But the sun still rises. Things will always get better.
I have no doubt that I will be just fine…more than fine, actually! I will get through this and continue my journey. I have no doubt that there will be times during this period where I will wonder how to do that, how to keep going on my journey, how to be confident that I’m on my rightest path. But, I also know that every single morning, I can look out and see the sun. The world keeps turning, life keeps moving, and I keep working on me.
This is part of my journey now, it’s becoming part of who I am (a divorcee…seriously?), and I am going to have to learn to own it, to own me. This is the next chapter in my life. I think I’ll title it The Sun Still Rises. And I’m going to own it! I’ve got a whole new journey ahead of me, one I had never considered, and one I can turn into anything I want. I’m going to embrace it!
My message to anyone who is struggling, who is going through some tough times, who feels a little overwhelmed or lost is simple: Please know that whatever life hands you, you CAN handle it. You are strong enough, you are smart enough, you are capable enough. You can take any punches that life throws at you and you can keep on moving forward. You are allowed to have sad days, you are allowed to have angry days, you are allowed to have whatever it is that you need, just know that you will come out of whatever your situation is as a stronger person who has amazing things to experience.
Your path won’t always be what you expect, your journey won’t always take you where you thought you wanted to go. That’s ok. Embrace the change. Love the journey. Live your life. Own Your You.